Sunday, March 12, 2006

A Long Ass Mutha Frikin' Blog

So I'm pretty sure the Cavalier King Charles Spaniel is the dog I want when I get my own place again. Their soulful eyes, cute faces, floppy ears & temperment has me hooked.
I mean how could you say no to a face like this?!?!
BTW I really want to see that new Dave Chappell movie. I love him & he has great taste in music. If it wasn't for his Rick James sketches, I'd never use the word bitch as much as I do. I love you Dave. Marry me! Only your married & I'm mostly homo, but whatever!

So here's mah story of Saturday March 11th 2006:
Yesterday was more of a witnessing of my own step back to get 2 steps further in spiritual growth. This pal of mine that I had a friendship crush on left me stranded at the spaghetti feed last night. Stranded maybe a strong term as there were folks to get me home from Milwaukie, but if felt as though I were stranded. He & his crew took off without me & my feelings were quite hurt. So after praying & breathing I called last night to ask what happened. He explained that he couldn't find me & my peeps & thought we all had taken off. After apologies & explainations it all was fine. But what I witnessed in my reactions was a sense of that old feeling of being abandonded. Here was this person who I wanted to get to know more because he's got a service position I may take with my own district & wished to learn his experiences with it. And instead we never talked & then he left. This moment of feeling like I wasn't worth enough to be taken home rushed over me. Irrational yes, but it lead to growth.

Hopelessness lasted for about a half hour. Then I relaxed & serenity took over, as it always does. Knowing that the sad feelings always pass & that I learn so much from them has helped me to go all the way into the sadness so I can really feel it & move on. Supressing those feelings only make for more pain in the long run. Anyway this morning I awoke refreshed & grateful. I know more than ever who I am & that I'm getting better at standing up for myself & staying true to my needs while being respectful & honest. Twice on Friday, from two people I heard this when considering
telling someone who you feel:
Is it true?
Is it necesssary?
Can it be said in a loving & respectful way?

So I got to put those questions into practice yesterday. Then I got to be true to myself & remember how wonderful it feels to live an optimistic & grateful life. So all it in, again life is sweet.

I'll say this though- I can't frickin' wait for Mercury retrograde to be over!

Friday my co-worker Seth sent me a link to this religion quiz. I took it & it said I ought to be a liberal Quaker. Here are the top 15 from this quiz:
1. Liberal Quakers (100%)
2. Mainline to Liberal Christian Protestants (98%)
3. Unitarian Universalism (93%)
4. Bahá'í Faith (78%)
5. Sikhism (68%)
6. Christian Science (Church of Christ, Scientist) (67%)
7. Neo-Pagan (67%)
8. Theravada Buddhism (67%)
9. Mahayana Buddhism (66%)
10. Orthodox Quaker (65%)
11. Reform Judaism (65%)
12. Hinduism (63%)
13. New Thought (62%)
14. New Age (60%)
15. Secular Humanism (55%)

So this is what liberal Quakers according to
• Belief in Deity
Diverse beliefs, from belief in a personal God as an incorporeal spirit to questioning belief in a personal God.

• Incarnations
Beliefs vary from the literal to the symbolic belief in Jesus Christ as God's incarnation. Most believe we are all sons and daughters of God, with the main focus on experiencing and listening to God, the Light within, accessible to all.

• Origin of Universe and Life
Emphasis is placed on spiritual truths as revealed to each individual. Many believe that God created/controls all events/processes that modern scientists are uncovering about origins. Many believe in scientific accounts alone or don't profess to know.

• After Death
Few liberal Quakers believe in direct reward and punishment, heaven and hell, or second coming of Christ. The primary focus is nondogmatic: God is love, love is eternal, and our actions in life should reflect love for all of humanity.

• Why Evil?
Beliefs vary, as the focus is not on why, but how to eliminate wrongs, especially violence. Many believe that violence against another human is violence against God. Many Quakers believe that lack of awareness of God's divine Light within all may result in wrongdoing. Many believe that evil is simply an unfortunate part of human nature that we all must work to eliminate.

• Salvation
Beliefs are diverse, as dogma is de-emphasized. Most believe that all will be saved because God is good and forgiving, and the divine Light of God is available to all. Good works, especially social work and peace efforts, are viewed as integral to the salvation of humanity, regardless of belief or nonbelief in an afterlife.

• Undeserving Suffering
Liberal Quakers do not believe that Satan causes suffering. Some believe suffering is part of God's plan, will, or design, even if we don't immediately understand it. Some don't believe in any spiritual reasons for suffering. Quakers focus on reducing human suffering, especially that which is caused by social injustice or violence.

• Contemporary Issues
Views vary, some maintaining that abortion violates Quaker commitment to nonviolence, but some view the right to choose abortion as an aspect of equal rights for women and/or as a personal matter between the woman and God. The American Friends Service Committee (an independent Quaker organization with participants of many faiths, which provides international programs for economic and social justice, peace, humanitarian aid) supports the woman’s right to choose abortion according to her own conscience.

So I'm going to check that out I think. I mean I don't believe is Jesus as like ya know our holy savior. But I think the story/mythology is cool. Infact I spoke to this lady on the bus this morning & I was telling her about how I love to walk around in nature & appreciate (insert higher powers name here)'s beauty. She showed me these versus from Psalms about nature & I was floored that this devout Protestant shared my beliefs & had (gasp) bible verses to back it up. Cool & freaky!

Lastly I took a photo of my blood on a mini pad & I think it looks cool. Here it is!

Peace out y'all!

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